Monday, November 06, 2006

So my dreams of competing in my first ironman have been smashed..... 3 weeks ago, i was running on the greenbelt in hermosa and stepped into a ditch... i tore ligaments in my left ankle.... i've been in an aircast for the past 3 weeks and i will be in to for an additional 3 - 5 weeks.... as soon as it happened i knew i was out of the race.... it took me a while to write this b/c i have been VERY upset.... but i know that i will become an ironman... just won't be this year.... and after speaking with coach, i know i will be physically stronger and faster, but most importantly stronger mentally!!! i've e-mailed the race directors and will be doing imwa next year :)....

so yes... there will be 14 more months of this blog!!!!

since i will be healing for the next few weeks, i will not be updating the blog... as soon as i start training, i'll return to blogging :)

thank you all for sending me notes of encouragement through out the past 11 months... thank you for sharing this journey with me.... i hope you all will continue to follow my blog through next year :)

i would like to give a BIG SHOUT OUT to my buddy Guy Avalon.... YOU ARE AN IRONMAN!!!! Also big-ups to my fellow LATC compadres that have supported me throughout this year!!!! GO LATC!!!

Thursday, August 31, 2006

yes i'm alive... just been offline for a while... also i haven't had the urge to update the blog.... let me see.... i last reported on honu.... since then the only race i've done was the Nautica New York City Triathlon... or as i would like to call it 10th dimension of HELL triathlon..

here's the race report......

there were over 3200 participants....... that's 4x larger than the turn out for honu 1/2.... thank got it wasn't a mass start!!

Swim
outside temp was about 70 degrees @5.30.... water temp was a bit cooler...
the first wave started at 5.30am!!!! my wave started at 6.44.... it was a point to point swim (1500 meters)... each wave had to move out to the pier... we all jumped in and held on to a rope... you could feel the current... it was strong and going in our direction :).... when i jumped in the water was NASTY!!!! Oh, i forgot to mention... we swam in the hudson... as soon as my head went under water i was blind!! that's right, not a single ray of light penitrated the surface of the water.... i've swam in murky water.... but this was pitch black!!! couldn't even see your hand or bubbles from breathing!!! the water smelled really bad!!! NASTY!!! the race director said that the river is the cleanest its been in 30 years... yeah right....

as i was swimming i could see bottles, tires, logs... TRASH!!!! floating by... i was hit by something... to this day i clam it was a log... a BIG log... i wouldn't be surprised if it were a dead body.... NASTY!!!!!

at the end of the swim finish there was a ramp that you have to get on the exit the water... they had volunteers literally scooping swimmers up... but about 25 yards before the ramp, my hands started scraping something.... i took a few strokes and i kept feel stuff scraping my hands... i figured it was the bottom of the river so i decided to stand... i sunk down in to this slimy sluge!!! things were poking me... it was disgusted!!!! anyway, i high stepped to the ramp and got out of the water.... i looked at my legs and they were filthy!!! just nasty and slimy.... just thinking about it is making me sick.... anyway, i felt like throwing up after i got out of the water...

t-1
the swim finish was over 1/4 mile to the transition area... i would say closer to 1/2 mile... there were 2 transition areas.. red and yellow... i guess with the amount of people in the race they couldn't accommodate us all in one transition area.... anyway i was in yellow which was further down..... so my transition time was about 10 min...... i must say this was one of the few times that all my stuff was in place!!!

bike
heading out of the transition we were directed by volunteers up a hill... it was a bit confusing because at one point the people in yellow transistion (me) had to turn while the red didn't... anyway, climed out of the park and saw my sister and brother-in-law... my bento box was coming off so i took it off and threw it at them.... almost fell :(.... but the ride was a simple 26 miles up the henry hudson parkway towards brooklyn and back.... the road was really rough... went through a toll booth, that was fun... but the road had lost of bridges so you had to ride over grates.... oh, there were a few hairpin turns towards the bike finish where there were some really bad crashes.... but that's about it...

t2
i was in and out... legs feeling great...

run
right out of t2 there was a STEEP climb out of the park.... then it was a slow steady climb on the nyc streets to central park... i'd say it was about one mile.... then once in central park.. it was a slightly hilly course.... but the thing that got me was the heat!!!! it was the 10th dimension of hell!!! hot and humid!!! there water stations every mile.... there was a guy spraying us with a water hose at the entrance of central park and towards the end.... but the thing that pissed me off were the random people running, cycling and rollerblading in our lane... just kept getting in the way....

ok so this race was the physically challenged athletes national championships... yes, people with disabilities were kicking my ass.... one guy had no legs, just those 'S' shaped springs... ran passed me like roadrunner... it got me thinking.... these people were out there, bustin' there ass (kickin mine) on the same course as i am... me a person with two arms and two legs.... i have no reason to complain... and i can't give on my dream of being an ironman!!! this is about more than just physical abilities!!!

ok sorry for the delay in posting this.... more to come

less than 4 months left to the big race!!!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

WOW close to a month since my last post... well i just got back from hawai'i... AWESOME TRIP!!! honu 1/2 didn't go as well as i planned, but i'm still on course for ironman western australia!! no, i didn't die in hawai'i.... i've gotten so many e-mails from people that were following my race... i didn't finish....

so, can you not finish a race and still feel good about it?? i got to kona 2 days before the race... i was nervous from the second i got on the plane on june 1 to when the gun went off on june 3..... my first 1/2.... longest distance to date... a precursor to a full ironman.... so many things were going though my head... will i make the swim cut off? hydration, nutrition... what if i get a flat... oh no i have a new bike w/ zipp 404's.... the list goes on and on....

race day.... this race had a duel transition.... the swim was in hapuna beach... unbelievable water!!! crystal clear... i could see all the way to the bottom... didn't realize the ocean floor looked like that... it will take a lot of mental effort for me to swim in LA waters.... VERY warm... just awesome... no surf... smooth as glass.... i played around before the race started.... i felt great!!! nervous as all hell.... i was trying to hold back tears... just so excited!!! the gun went off ... oh, it was a mass start... my first mass start... we had to cross a 6 buoys totaling 1.2 miles.... the first buoy was 1/4 mile away.... i really took my time... drafted to avoid sighting, but the people i was drafting off of were too slow... so i had to break out and sight for myself :( i'm a horrible sighter... anyway, between the middle of the 2nd buoy to the 4th sea got really choppy!! i slowed down considerably.... felt good, kept heart rate really low... i needed to stop quite a bit to get my bearings..... but again felt confident and good!!! i rounded the fifth buoy and was almost to the shore... just need to round one more buoy and i hit the beach... i looked at my watch and it was at 45 min.... i had 20 min to cut off and was 2 min away!!! awesome!! but things took a turn... i vomited.... several times.... the lifeguard came over and told me to rest on the surf board as long as i needed.... i wasn't worried... i knew i had time... no stress... i held on and vomited some more.... i probably lost 15 min... after i finished vomiting, i booked to for the shore... i had made it through my 1st 1/2 iron swim... granted i was one of the last to exit, but no matter i made it!!!

my transition was 8 min... we had to run up a bitch of a hill before getting to the bikes... then we had volunteers helping us on our bikes because we started the bike going UP a hill.... i don't know what is going through the race directors head when they designed this transition!!

bike...
took a bit longer than expected to get my legs going... but they caught up to my head after the climb... the bike course was on the main (only) highway on the big island, highway 19.... ok can i say WINDY!!!! and no it wasn't a nice tail wind... nope had the be a head and side wind... me on zipps with a side wind!!! and it was fairly hilly... rollers one after an other and quite a few long climbs.... on top of all that it was blazing hot.... and no relief of shade!! so i decided to keep my heart rate REALLY low... i knew that i still had the run after 56 miles of biking.... i decided to shutdown and go on cruise control... i think that was a bad idea... i should have push harder... not killed myself, but just pushed harder.... my heart rate didin't go above 156... well on the climbs it did.. anyway, my hydration was right on!!! i think in the beginning of my ride i might have over done it a tad bit w/ the fuel drink... should have stuck to plain water.... but it took a good 10 miles for me to get over vomiting in the water.... i kept feeling dizzy when i got down in aero... no matter there wasn't a single time that i was kicking myself for doing this.... i wasn't beating myself up as i normally do..... for me besides pushing harder on the bike, i had a great ride... oh, just before the turn around, there was a refreshing down pour... started off as a light misting and became steadily heaver... not too heavy, but did make it a bit slippery... it felt so great!!! that was the only relief from the heat......

now the part were my race ends..... i look at my watch and the time was 12.24 pm.... swim/bike cut off was 12.30.... i looked at my odometer and it was at mile 52... i was only 4 miles from the bike finish.... i started to push harder.. i knew that i would be there in about 15 min... it was mostly downhill from where i was.... then wouldn't you know a race official pulled up next to me and stopped me.... she told me that the course was closed and i could not continue... "better luck next year"... i was pissed!!! less than 4 miles away!!! 15 min and i would be on the run course.... my legs were fresh.. my mind was ready... but no i was not allowed to continue... correction... she gave me a the choice of either stopping here and waiting for the sag vehicle or riding to the bike finish without support... RIDDING TO THE BIKE FINISH!!!??? what... you will let me finish the bike, but won't let me start the run!!! total bullshit... this was a tough day... there were several people that weren't able to make it out of the water because it was so rough... the wind almost knocked over bike during race... i think they should have extended the cut-off... they were so strict that people that were at the bike finish at 12.31 were not able to continue... what's worse??? well, i decided to ride the 4 miles back... i was not going to let her stop me from finishing.... my total time for the 56 mile ride was 4.58... this includes the 15 min or so w/ the race official....

anyway, yes i was very upset.... but when the race official stopped me not once did i think that i couldn't do a full ironman.... not once did i doubt myself.... after talking w/ coach, he was surprised, given the conditions, that they didn't extend the cutoff.... he was 100% supportive... he says that i'm still on course for having a good full in dec.... i know i am... i know i have the endurance... now i need to work on speed... i have to stop babying myself and do more heat and hill training....

also, after 5+ hours of swiming and biking in heat, hills and wind all i was complaining about was a slight headache.... almost a week later and only one short hour of jetskining - I CAN'T MOVE!!! :)

i learned a lot about myself during the race.... i will conquer honu next year!!!

i will be in buslleton dec 3... and if all goes well i will be an ironman dec 4!!!

next race... NYC Tri on July 16.. olympic distance... swimming in the hudson :(

IMWA COUNTDOWN T -172 DAYS!!!!

Monday, May 15, 2006

i had a great 2000 swim on thursday... missed the latc ocean swim on sun... had a luau @ my house on sat, thus sun was a SLOW day.... my new bike is ready... Kestrel airfoil.... can't wait.... honu here i come :)

COUNTDOWN TO HONU T-19 DAYS!!!!
COUNTDOWN TO IMWA T - 202 DAYS!!!

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

I'M BACK!!!!!

after a week of doubt and self-loathing, i'm 300000 % back!!!! i know i can do this and wont' stop until i do... i know there will be more times such as this, but i also have my goal in sight.....

i got in to the ocean on sun and all i could see was the lake at desert tri... i know i have work on it.... over come my mental issues.... coach has put ocean swims in my program....

just bought a new bike... kestral airfoil... dura-ace components.... i like it :) i should have it next week.... just in time for me to ride it a bit then ship it off to honu 1/2.... i've switched over to speed plays.... still haven't gone to the bull horns... we shall see...

my parents' anniversary was yesterday and i bought them a trip to hawaii... well its selfish on my part... i want them to see me do honu..... its great to have your family waiting for you at transitions and especially the FINISHLINE....

COUNTDOWN TO HONU 1/2 T-31 DAYS!!!!!!
COUNTDOWN TO IMWA T-215 DAYS!!!!

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

forgot to add a small tidbit to the last post... my race number was 69 :)

countdown to honu t - 38 days
countdown to imwa t - 221 days

well i was in the desert over the weekend.... desert trialthlon international distance in la quinta.... i sucked!!! worst race to date.... going in to the race i knew i wouldn't finish.... no no i wasn't giving up.... i have a foot injury and coach told me not to do the run.... coach told me to have a strong swim but HAMMER the bike since i wouldn't be running after.... just to see what my time would be... well here's the race day breakdown...

swim
my wave started at 8.06 am.... water was nice... they pumped in water from the colorado... i got in and played around.... felt good... i was feeling good about the race... my first lake swim... no worrying about current or waves.... or so i thought... the wind was so strong (at least 12 knots) that there were white caps on the lake... now this lake is tiny.... anyway, the gun goes off and i let the strong swimmers go.... i plop in and get in to my groove..... well i never got into my groove..... i freaked out.... i had a panic attack in the water.... i was feeling claustrophobic and it all went downhill from there..... the next wave came in and i was trampled by a heard of swimmers.... i didn't even make it to the first buoy.... the rescue boat came and scooped me up.... i was done...

i got to shore and snuck back in to the swim exit and got into transition... i saw coach and he was VERY impressed w/ the swim... until i told him i got scooped up out of the water.... he consoled me and to me to HAMMER HAMMER HAMMER the bike.... no holding back....

bike
came out of transition and my bike computer wasn't working... stopped and adjusted the sensors and i was off.... can i say HEAD WIND!!! the race course was a rectangle that we had to go around twice.... on every turn there was a monster head wind.... anyway, i didn't hammer as hard as i could.... i couldn't get the swim out of my head.... but i was able to have a relatively smooth cadence at harder gear....... i used the wind to my advantage when i got a chance... my average mph was 17.... i know i could have been in more of the 19 - 20 range if i only got the swim out....

run
didn't happen... foot injury

after i returned to the transition area, i got my stuff and went to the finish line to cheer people coming in... i found coach and just broke down.... coach was very encouraging.... reinforced the fact that this was just another training day.... told me that i am physically capable of doing the swim.. we just need to attack my head....

so normally i would have written this right after i got back from the race... it is 3 days after and i'm just getting around to it.... well there is a reason for the delay.... i've been reflecting on the race and its just getting me down.... i can't seem to shake it off..... monday was an off day for training.... yesterday i was supposed to do 2000 swim and 1.5 hour bike.... i went to the pool and just stared at the water... couldn't get in.... thought i'd go for my ride to clear my head... came home and stared at my bike.... i'm still feeling blue and have no desire to swim today..... i don't know what to do.... i'm trying to listen to coach... but i can't shake it....

countdown to honu t - 38 days....
countdown to imwa t - 221 days

Saturday, April 22, 2006

i got extremely emotional yesterday... no training is not getting me down..... i'm on a high w/ training.... a bit bummbed that my foot is still hurting, but nothing to cry over...

my fiance, TiVo :) recorded ironman arizona 2006.... as soon as i saw it on my "now playing list" i had butterflies in my stomach..... i push play, and the flood gates opened.... they talked about the 2.4 mile swim.... tears.... 112 bike.. tears.... 26.2 mile run... tears.. i was both excited and scared... excited that i'm on my way to ironman western australia.... scared that i won't be able to finish or that i'd get injured before race day..... paula newbie-fraser (i met her at the last latc dinner... she signed a towel for me :O) was talking about how you can easily dehydrate during the race..... one of my biggest concerns.... may be its too early to worry about the big race, but that's my ultimate goal.... what happens if i don't reach it? i don't know... all i know is that every time i saw someone cross the finish line, the flood gates opened...... every time!!!!! i know the ironman is for me and i will not give up until i cross that finish line!!!

i'm leaving for desert tri in a few hours.... my foot is KILLING ME :( no chance of doing the run.... first race that i will not be able to finish... gotta brush it off and think about kona...

COUNTDOWN TO KONA T-42 DAYS :O

COUNTDOWN TO IMWA T-225 DAYS